As soon as they returned to West Allis, Mrs. Dahmer and her grandson began spending more time together. They went to church together and read the Bible. Jeff immersed himself in the Bible while he was alone, too, in a conscious attempt to wrestle with the blackness within him and purge it … ’I was reading the Bible then, trying to get my life straightened around, and I’d give some money to the street people sometimes, or send it in to different missionaries.’ By being charitable and kind, he hoped to eradicate his sinfulness or at least smother it. The memory of Stephen Hicks faded and no longer lunged tormentingly at him in the middle of the day. He also managed to control his habits of masturbation and limit himself to one time per week. He felt it was wrong and had to be reduced; by rubbing himself against the bed instead of using his hand, he was able to convince himself that he was not really indulging in self-abuse. He also felt guilty about the imaginings in his head which accompanied this pseudo-masturbation, because they were always homosexual and the Bible taught that homosexuality was sinful. He succeeded in repressing them and was pleased with himself.
The world of nature, as explored by the natural scientist, does not ‘mean’ anything to the molecules, atoms, and electrons therein. The observational field of the social scientists however, namely the social reality, has a specific meaning and relevance structure for the human beings living, acting, and thinking therein.
Alfred Schutz, Concept and Theory Formation in the Social Sciences (via refeek)